Just don't stop. After weeks, even months of working so hard and fighting your desires to just be lazy.... don't stop working out. SERIOUSLY.
I did. I had been building endurance and speed for months and it's all lost.
You challenge yourself and work your schedule anyway you can to be commited only to start all over.
First there was dad's wedding and then the kids started back into school... trying to adjust to new schedules and routines. That's all it took, 2wks of running down the drain. My last run was 5mi at a great pace...my best ever, 2wks ago. I ran over 27miles total that week. Today I struggled and struggled and STRUGGLED to get through a 2mile run. I mean struggled. The landscape and wind seemed to be moving by okay but when I tuned into my body I realized I was NOT moving. I could hardly get air. I felt like an elephant or something, with my legs weighing 1000lbs each. For that fight, as hard as I was pushing, sweating and forcing one foot in front of the other... I would have anticiapated a 6:45 pace (2wks ago). Today it was 8:14. That should have been relaxing... oohh but it was FAR from it!!!.
So again I say, if you're working out or planning to, even in the smallest of doses... DON'T stop. It's just not worth it. It's throwing everything away that you've already worked for.
How bad do you want it?
FIND A WAY. or pay.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
WAAAAAYYY behind on Blogging
Wow, time really flies when..... okay really time always flies by. I have not blogged in over a month but it has been CRAZY. (as always right).
MY kids, MY kids, MY kids. Yes they are at the Heart of that......crazy. I did have to give up 3wks with them. It was an awful 3 weeks for me and from the sounds of it not better for them. I couldn't stand to be home for a second. Seriously the second I walked in the door I felt like I had to leave or a heap of tears would flood the place. Thankfully, I was comforted by a wonderful friend and if it wasn't for him... well, things could have been distasterous.... OH, which brings me to the fact that my body decideds then to get SICK... like mono sick. Okay, it wasn't diagnosed to be Mono but lets just say my body still has not recovered and that was 6wks ago. I couldn't move. My legs hurt, my throat was just awful and I had fevers for a week. So much for being comforted and staying out of the house. But, at the first opportunity I was outside running and breathing fresh air... nothing like taking time to recover. I tried calling my kids everyday. BUT was only allowed to talk to them on Tuesdays and Thursdays. How crappy is that? Some parents..... Well, I will say no more. My kids said they knew I called and had many feelings on the matter.
I ended up making a trip down to get them (wasn't suppose to happen that way) and couldn't have been happier to see their little faces. WOOO WHOOO!!! I was SO happy. Still AM. I have unfortunately been dealing with a ton of mixed emotions and such but they are HOME! We spent the first week snuggling every chance we could.... who am I kidding they've been home 3wks now and I'm still snuggling them every chance I get.
I did the CRIM. The 10 miles. My goal was to run it with a pace of 8:50/mi and I did an 8:55/mi avg. I was very pleased with that especially since I didn't have a timing device. I got to start the race with the incredible TRI for LIFE team!!! http://www.donatelifetriathlon.com/ that was a great privilege and I met up with them after the race. It sounded like they had a great run (and then did the Chigago Tri the following weekend-What a bunch of POWER HOUSES). I myself, even though very pleased think I could have ran it a bit faster... I can say that now, hee hee!
The following week was SCHOOL shopping for the kiddies. Only the necessities (some of which still exist). I love getting them organized and ready but it can make for long days. My daughter and I spent over 6 hours getting her ORGANIZED and READY. That little Turkey. Her room was a Nightmare. Seriously- A scary nightmare. But, we've got it undercontrol now and we are on top of it everynight. Mom layed a few new rules down and they seem to be working.. for now at least.
I also took the kids to see Thomas the Train.!! Owie's big day every year. He loves it. We won tickets off the radio this year (which was a blessing). It started out rainy but turned out to be a wonderful day. The kids rode in the caboose and had the best seats on board. They loved it. I have pictures I'll have to share soon.
This past weekend my DAD got married. I still can't believe it. Well, I can but.... my dad!
It was very beautiful in his backyard. Lots of fun. I can't wait to see the pictures (need to visit my sisters flicker). My littlest guy was one of the ring bears... his first wedding ever. He did so good and looked so cute. My cousin kept telling me he looked like a little G-Q. Haahhhahaha.
Soccer is in full swing and this year I'm coaching the youngest group. My Owie is so thrilled I'm coaching. It has been intersting. I've got a great group of kids. A few that just crack me up.
And yesterday was my kids first day of school. Yeah no pictures. I'm really slacking lately. My memory card has been full (found out at dad's wedding). My daughter was so anxious for her first day she was up at 2am again this year. I had to send her back to bed.
Woow!! what a quick update.
MY kids, MY kids, MY kids. Yes they are at the Heart of that......crazy. I did have to give up 3wks with them. It was an awful 3 weeks for me and from the sounds of it not better for them. I couldn't stand to be home for a second. Seriously the second I walked in the door I felt like I had to leave or a heap of tears would flood the place. Thankfully, I was comforted by a wonderful friend and if it wasn't for him... well, things could have been distasterous.... OH, which brings me to the fact that my body decideds then to get SICK... like mono sick. Okay, it wasn't diagnosed to be Mono but lets just say my body still has not recovered and that was 6wks ago. I couldn't move. My legs hurt, my throat was just awful and I had fevers for a week. So much for being comforted and staying out of the house. But, at the first opportunity I was outside running and breathing fresh air... nothing like taking time to recover. I tried calling my kids everyday. BUT was only allowed to talk to them on Tuesdays and Thursdays. How crappy is that? Some parents..... Well, I will say no more. My kids said they knew I called and had many feelings on the matter.
I ended up making a trip down to get them (wasn't suppose to happen that way) and couldn't have been happier to see their little faces. WOOO WHOOO!!! I was SO happy. Still AM. I have unfortunately been dealing with a ton of mixed emotions and such but they are HOME! We spent the first week snuggling every chance we could.... who am I kidding they've been home 3wks now and I'm still snuggling them every chance I get.
I did the CRIM. The 10 miles. My goal was to run it with a pace of 8:50/mi and I did an 8:55/mi avg. I was very pleased with that especially since I didn't have a timing device. I got to start the race with the incredible TRI for LIFE team!!! http://www.donatelifetriathlon.com/ that was a great privilege and I met up with them after the race. It sounded like they had a great run (and then did the Chigago Tri the following weekend-What a bunch of POWER HOUSES). I myself, even though very pleased think I could have ran it a bit faster... I can say that now, hee hee!
The following week was SCHOOL shopping for the kiddies. Only the necessities (some of which still exist). I love getting them organized and ready but it can make for long days. My daughter and I spent over 6 hours getting her ORGANIZED and READY. That little Turkey. Her room was a Nightmare. Seriously- A scary nightmare. But, we've got it undercontrol now and we are on top of it everynight. Mom layed a few new rules down and they seem to be working.. for now at least.
I also took the kids to see Thomas the Train.!! Owie's big day every year. He loves it. We won tickets off the radio this year (which was a blessing). It started out rainy but turned out to be a wonderful day. The kids rode in the caboose and had the best seats on board. They loved it. I have pictures I'll have to share soon.
This past weekend my DAD got married. I still can't believe it. Well, I can but.... my dad!
It was very beautiful in his backyard. Lots of fun. I can't wait to see the pictures (need to visit my sisters flicker). My littlest guy was one of the ring bears... his first wedding ever. He did so good and looked so cute. My cousin kept telling me he looked like a little G-Q. Haahhhahaha.
Soccer is in full swing and this year I'm coaching the youngest group. My Owie is so thrilled I'm coaching. It has been intersting. I've got a great group of kids. A few that just crack me up.
And yesterday was my kids first day of school. Yeah no pictures. I'm really slacking lately. My memory card has been full (found out at dad's wedding). My daughter was so anxious for her first day she was up at 2am again this year. I had to send her back to bed.
Woow!! what a quick update.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Another year older
These birthdays really are uneventful as you get older. I had a coworker ask me, "what do you have planned, you going out to dinner or...?"
Yeah-I'm gonna make myself a cake and then take myself out to dinner.
Not exactly.
The last birthday party I remember as a child was my sixteenth birthday. My mom was there, my Aunt Margo from Texas and her daughter Vanna, my boyfriend (ex husband now) and it was at my Great Grandparents house down the road from my dads. Yes, I had to identify that my mom was there because it's one of the only birthdays I remember in which she was. She gave me a 16" gold necklace that I still have and wear from time to time. My Aunt Margo had got me a gold bracelet to match.
Let's see... the next celebration or ackowledged birthday I remember wouldn't come until my 23rd birthday when my girl friend (God mother to my daughter), Angela took me to see my favorite country singer (at that time) Keith Urban. And we had SO much fun.
The following year I was in Mi and my awesome sister, Krista (love you too Chrissy) got me tickets to Country Thunder USA where I again got to see almost touch Keith Urban. What a GREAT birthday that was.!!!!!
This year was basically just another day on the calander. I don't feel any different. I did however, have to re-add it a few times to make sure I was telling people to right age. Hahaha. I started forgetting my age a few years ago.
My kids did make it great though. I can't believe there little minds. Owen when reminded on the ride to daycare by my co-worker said he had to give me my birthday spankings... I got six :-). Keagan had them hustle to clean the house when we got home. Kierrah did the bathroom, he vaccummed and swept all the floors, Owen picked up all the floors. I got the best hugs and kisses a mom could ever ask for on her birthday.
Yeah-I'm gonna make myself a cake and then take myself out to dinner.
Not exactly.
The last birthday party I remember as a child was my sixteenth birthday. My mom was there, my Aunt Margo from Texas and her daughter Vanna, my boyfriend (ex husband now) and it was at my Great Grandparents house down the road from my dads. Yes, I had to identify that my mom was there because it's one of the only birthdays I remember in which she was. She gave me a 16" gold necklace that I still have and wear from time to time. My Aunt Margo had got me a gold bracelet to match.
Let's see... the next celebration or ackowledged birthday I remember wouldn't come until my 23rd birthday when my girl friend (God mother to my daughter), Angela took me to see my favorite country singer (at that time) Keith Urban. And we had SO much fun.
The following year I was in Mi and my awesome sister, Krista (love you too Chrissy) got me tickets to Country Thunder USA where I again got to see almost touch Keith Urban. What a GREAT birthday that was.!!!!!
This year was basically just another day on the calander. I don't feel any different. I did however, have to re-add it a few times to make sure I was telling people to right age. Hahaha. I started forgetting my age a few years ago.
My kids did make it great though. I can't believe there little minds. Owen when reminded on the ride to daycare by my co-worker said he had to give me my birthday spankings... I got six :-). Keagan had them hustle to clean the house when we got home. Kierrah did the bathroom, he vaccummed and swept all the floors, Owen picked up all the floors. I got the best hugs and kisses a mom could ever ask for on her birthday.
Friday, July 3, 2009
CAR POOLING
OH the benefits are so great.
Yes the obvious, I'm saving MONEY.
But, this morning for example I was on the schedule 45min earlier than my co-worker so I got dropped off at the door (didn't have to walk that mile accross our parking lot to the hospital), and she even brought me coffee!!! Hot Fresh COFFEE!
This is good living.
And good living is much needed here lately.
It's amazing sometimes how far the smallest bit of thoughtfulness can go or how much it can imact someone. You might not always know what's going on in someones life (she knows about mine) but, you can still help. Her simple kindness this morning after that week I've been having will be stretched and appreciated to great lengths.
Yes the obvious, I'm saving MONEY.
But, this morning for example I was on the schedule 45min earlier than my co-worker so I got dropped off at the door (didn't have to walk that mile accross our parking lot to the hospital), and she even brought me coffee!!! Hot Fresh COFFEE!
This is good living.
And good living is much needed here lately.
It's amazing sometimes how far the smallest bit of thoughtfulness can go or how much it can imact someone. You might not always know what's going on in someones life (she knows about mine) but, you can still help. Her simple kindness this morning after that week I've been having will be stretched and appreciated to great lengths.
Monday, June 29, 2009
The comfort of a 4yr old
He stands at the end of my bed. Mommy, dressed and ready for work walks around and sits right in front of him on the floor. He turns and takes mommy's head in his little arms and pulls it into his tummy.
Mommy says, "I'm don't feel good, I am so tired I just want to crawl back into bed and sleep"
He says, "Mommy you have to go to work and get the money, ok?" But, if you hurry up at work and pick me up fast at daycare I will snuggle you when we get home".
Mommy smiled, "that sounds perfect".
Mommy says, "I'm don't feel good, I am so tired I just want to crawl back into bed and sleep"
He says, "Mommy you have to go to work and get the money, ok?" But, if you hurry up at work and pick me up fast at daycare I will snuggle you when we get home".
Mommy smiled, "that sounds perfect".
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Much to say... little time
The other day after doing some much needed grocery shopping I decided (completely spur of the moment to do a run) so we swung by the track. I did a very rejuivinating 3 miles. I only had my cell phone to time but according to it's stop watch I was about 8 min 24sec pace. I can live with that. I met the current track coach up there who says he really needs a distance coach to help him out......hmmmmmm. We talked for a while and I shared some tips I've been reading. I told him we'll be in touch.
My kids are totally taking advantage of paranoid mom mode!!
Their bedtime has been pushed back the last 2 nights, they've all been piling in my bed and they ALL think they need their own blanket and their own pillow. So we somehow end up with 6 pillows, 6 blankets (non of which we're under) and 4 bodies... Mom usually wiggles to the end of the bed at some point (so much more room by their little toes). I feel like we can't do enough together. Last weekend we scheduled a lunch outing after church, the movie "UP" in 3D (very cute), bowling and the park. And the weekend before that I took them to the Drive in. We've been picnicing, minus the few days of rain and snuggling up together on the couch every night. I just can't IMAGINE not seeing their little faces for 2wks or more.
I was up til 3am this morning fretting over it. Just could not sleep. So many things come into perspective at that hour believe it or not.
Anyway, I recieved a phone call this morning... Good news. Really good news!! I can't wait to share it with those who...... well with my family and closest friends.
ALL I can say right now is THANK GOD! And Really...... I'm thanking Him.
My kids are totally taking advantage of paranoid mom mode!!
Their bedtime has been pushed back the last 2 nights, they've all been piling in my bed and they ALL think they need their own blanket and their own pillow. So we somehow end up with 6 pillows, 6 blankets (non of which we're under) and 4 bodies... Mom usually wiggles to the end of the bed at some point (so much more room by their little toes). I feel like we can't do enough together. Last weekend we scheduled a lunch outing after church, the movie "UP" in 3D (very cute), bowling and the park. And the weekend before that I took them to the Drive in. We've been picnicing, minus the few days of rain and snuggling up together on the couch every night. I just can't IMAGINE not seeing their little faces for 2wks or more.
I was up til 3am this morning fretting over it. Just could not sleep. So many things come into perspective at that hour believe it or not.
Anyway, I recieved a phone call this morning... Good news. Really good news!! I can't wait to share it with those who...... well with my family and closest friends.
ALL I can say right now is THANK GOD! And Really...... I'm thanking Him.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
scared mom
My gutt is in paranoid mom mode.
Bad enough I might not see my youngest two for 2wks; now I find out (as those who know my situation know-it changes by the minute) my oldest may have to forfeit his position on the AllStar team that he worked very hard for, and there may be no homecoming in 2 wks.
How do I cope?
2wks is SO long? I have never been away from my kids for more than a week. The one time they went down south to see their dad, I drove them. I stayed down there, so I was close. I can't go down there right now.
There's been threats that my calls won't be excepted. That's thinking like a mature parent. Take the kids away from their home, away from the one person who's always been there and don't let them speak to her. Seriously? My daughter said last night that I have to call her every morning and everynight. And I will. But, I can't make him answer.
It's not just me they'll be missing either. What about all their friends and family that is here. Kids hang out with their friends all summer long. My oldest two have already had several invites.
I'm so going crazy here. And I can't imagine what my kids will be going through.
I could go on forever but it's probably best not to share so much with the internet world.
If there is any words of encouragement or advice..... I'm all ears.
Bad enough I might not see my youngest two for 2wks; now I find out (as those who know my situation know-it changes by the minute) my oldest may have to forfeit his position on the AllStar team that he worked very hard for, and there may be no homecoming in 2 wks.
How do I cope?
2wks is SO long? I have never been away from my kids for more than a week. The one time they went down south to see their dad, I drove them. I stayed down there, so I was close. I can't go down there right now.
There's been threats that my calls won't be excepted. That's thinking like a mature parent. Take the kids away from their home, away from the one person who's always been there and don't let them speak to her. Seriously? My daughter said last night that I have to call her every morning and everynight. And I will. But, I can't make him answer.
It's not just me they'll be missing either. What about all their friends and family that is here. Kids hang out with their friends all summer long. My oldest two have already had several invites.
I'm so going crazy here. And I can't imagine what my kids will be going through.
I could go on forever but it's probably best not to share so much with the internet world.
If there is any words of encouragement or advice..... I'm all ears.
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